lavenders

"my tears gone cold i'm wondering why.. got out of bed at all...
morning rain clouds up my window, and i cant see at all;
even if i could it'd all be grey, but your picture on my wall
it reminds me that its not so bad, its not so bad..."
-dido-lyrics of "thank you"

good days... are too good to be true.
have you felt those moments? where the world is so beautiful... you've just made heaven on earth, with lavenders hanging down nothingness and blooming smiles everywhere, when all of a sudden... everything just falls apart.
i am now going to assume it as a law of nature. just today i was arguing with a friend, "we are so lazy... instead of doing one sketch a day from the day it was assigned, we keep 9 sketches to do today for tomorrow's submission."
what happened today totally justified procrastination. do you realize that bad things don't happen little by little? a particular "day" is chosen, when everything is rosy and fun, and the army of Bad things just attack! otherwise, days are plain.

OR IT'S JUST ME

it's scary to think about how my world is going to be next winter.

let me list out what might change:
1. i guess i can finally throw my phone away!
2. ill be heading home earlier after college.
3. good bye maze!!
4. my earrings will remain.
5. ill probably laugh a hundred times less.
6. hopefully will use my computer everyday.
anyway i'm just going to let it creep in... slowly.

all for the good.